What I Read This Week: 6/21 – 6/27/12

27 Jun

So guess what sucks, guys? Break ups. Break ups suck so hard, even when they’re amicable, necessary and expected. Even when you have all that, it still feels like someone kind of sitting on your chest….all the time. And the worst part? I kind of forget about it sometimes. I’ll think, “Oh, I should call him about this or that” or “Next time I’m at his house I’ll do this…” and then BAM. NOPE. DONE. And that generally leads to crying at my desk.

So yeah. It’s been a hard week.

And what does this have to do with what I read this week? I was reading The Hobbit, which really is one of the ex-bf’s loves. I have my own copy, but he’s the one who’s really into it. So I had to stop. I just couldn’t read any more of it. The emotional connections were way too strong. Sorry, Bilbo. You’re going to have make the rest of the journey yourself, at least for now. Maybe I’ll pick it up again later, but not right now.

Luckily, I was at the American Library Association Conference this weekend, which meant I got a TON of Advance Reading Copies of books. They’re mostly YA/fantasy, which isn’t really my thing, but at least I have tons of alternate reading material around.

So, I ended up reading Witches!: The Absolutely True Tale of Disaster in Salem by Rosalyn Schanzer this week as a replacement.

I have always found the Salem Witch Trials fascinating, as they really do display human behavior at its very worst. Reading about that dark period is always such a potent reminder of how even rational people (and especially teenage girls!) can let things dangerously spiral out of control super quickly.

Witches! is a book meant for about junior high level readers that delves really deeply into the details of this time. The events are laid out plainly, though in a bit too much detail at times…but maybe that’s just because I’m having a hard time focusing right now. Where this book really shines is the fantastic illustrations! Look at the cover! It’s amazing! The whole book is filled with these dark, oddly beautiful etchings done in mostly black and white.

Hopefully I’ll be back to my more normal self next week, everyone.

And if anyone has how to live through a sad break-up tips, I’m all ears. Seriously.

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6 Responses to “What I Read This Week: 6/21 – 6/27/12”

  1. Meg Granger (@MegsGranger) June 27, 2012 at 12:25 pm #

    SO MANY HUGS FOR YOU. Breakups…*shudder* Hmmm…how to deal with breakups. I think I generally made myself go out and do new things that I wouldn’t generally have felt comfortable doing alone. I had a dependency problem when I was younger, and I leaned on my boyfriends a lot. So it was important to me to flex my independence muscles when I found myself bereft of boyfriend. It was empowering.

    OR there’s the old standby: Eating ice cream (can substitute cookie dough) from the carton whilst watching The First Wives Club (can substitute Thelma and Louise).

    • ohdizzle June 28, 2012 at 9:45 am #

      I think in a way I’m lucky, as I was single FOR YEARS before this guy, so I had a lot of single activities to go back to. It wasn’t like I’d never been here before, so that’s good at least. And yes…I’ve become a bit of a frozen yogurt fiend in the past week. Why does it help so much?

  2. JessB June 28, 2012 at 5:01 am #

    Oh babe, I’m sending you a big warm hug from all the way Down Under! I had my own break up in April and it was shit.

    i survived by taking care of myself and really listening to what I needed. Is it a walk outside? A bit of Facebook stalking? A bowl of ice-cream with Milo, or a bowl of ice-cream with choc-chips and chopped peanuts or a bowl of ice-cream with sliced banana and cream? A good cultural excursion to get my mind off it, like a museum or an art gallery? An old, favourite book to read, to remember better days, like something by Roald Dahl or Enid Blyton? A brand new book to celebrate being single, and the whole world of possibility that is open to me?

    All of these things helped me, as well as lovely friends who were so amazing at listening to me when I called and when we met up.

    Good luck to you honey, I’ll be thinking of you.

    • ohdizzle June 28, 2012 at 9:44 am #

      Thank you so much! Yeah, I’ve been trying to listen to my body, though it seems to mostly be saying “I just want to lie on the couch and watch the Bachelorette.” I tricked it into going for a run yesterday though, and that helped!

      Thank you for your thoughts. That’s really sweet and definitely helps! 🙂

  3. MelissaM July 19, 2012 at 12:15 am #

    I understand how you feel. For me, sometimes it’s not the break-up itself but the disappointment that another relationship didn’t work out.

    I try to keep busy by doing everything I love. Whether it’s reading, skyping with friends, writing, running in the park, work – I throw myself into the activities that bring me joy and I try to be with the people I love most. I have a friend who even started taking language classes and can now speak Spanish!

    This is a tough time but you’ll get through it. He won’t be the last man you’ll love. Believe that he’s out there and you will find him:)

    All the best.

    • ohdizzle July 20, 2012 at 10:38 am #

      Thank you for such a sweet comment. It really did make me feel better when I read it. I totally agree about it being more about the relationship than the particular person, especially since my relationship ended in an expected and amicable way. Most of the anxiety is now centered around being on my own again, which I know I can do as I did it for years, but I need to get used to it again. Blergh. Just need to keep my head up, which, of course, is easier said than done.

      But again, thank you. 🙂

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